Josh is leaving me. He's doesn't want to be roommates anymore. He's finding another apartment. It's all over. I fucked up a million times over and this is killing me. He's killed me. I've killed me.
I tried talking to him. I told him about the crush. I told him what i did was wrong and I'd take it back a thousand times but he's made up his mind. What has been done was done in his eyes. I can't believe this is happening. Please wake me up from this nightmare. I don't have the energy to post right now, and I don't think I will for a while.
Happy fucking birthday.