Blueberries

On Friday Josh's girlfriend flew over to visit for the weekend. She is a very lucky girl. I didn't do much until today when we all went blueberry picking at a local farm. We ended up picking 20 lbs of blueberries, LMAO! When we got back I made a blueberry pie and I got some ingredients to make other blueberry recipes such as blueberry cake and Josh wants blueberry muffins. In the morning I think I'll make a blueberry breakfast smoothie. I don't think It'll be hard to use them all up, I think I must have eaten a pound or two already HAHA.

Josh came back from dropping his gf off at the airport and we played CoD4 for awhile and now I'm doing a load of laundry at the moment.

I was looking at Josh's myspace a minute ago and I came across his brother's memorial page again. His older brother by one year died the year before Josh went to college. Seeing that site and thinking of the pain Josh must have went through made me very sad again. I say again because sometimes I can get very emotional and often in a bad way, i.e. I get filled with grief. Lately I've been trying to avoid this by just being happy, even just by trying to wear bright colors. When I went shopping Thursday I bought a yellow polo and I realized then that it was the only piece of yellow clothing I owned and now I want to get some more. Just wearing that yellow polo made me feel happier and more confident; I was projecting instead of absorbing, literally. Sorry for the ramble, but I want to write this down for the sake of this being a journal.

Goodnight