Apartments and bowling

I've been thinking lately that it would just be better if I got a single apartment. Yeah, it's more expensive and when my loans kick in I'll be making things tight, but it's just so much better to have free reign over my living space. If I were to have company over.. it would just be better to have them over at my place in a more comfortable environment.

Speaking of housing, I checked out the cheap shared home I mentioned in the previous post. It's, well, cheap for a reason. Bad neighborhood, although they live next door to a cop. But the inside was just unappealing and I'd have restrictions on having guests over... so I think I'm going to tell them I will decline. I really do want to tough it out for like a year or two and just use the money I'd save to pay of loans or something, but I don't think I can do it sanely. I just can't expect to meet someone in a relationship and bring them over the house... so I'm going to have to side with the potential of love here over money.

On that note! Tonight I met Anthony at a bowling alley, where we played 3 games. Last night he suggested that we make a non-monetary bet on the outcome of the game, and whoever wins gets to claim it after the game. lol, I think I knew at this point, at least in my mind, that he probably wanted a kiss as his reward. Well, that's what I wanted. So we bowled 3 games and I won every one of them... I kind of felt bad, because I'm not a good bowler at all.. but apparently it was literally the second time he's gone bowling... so yeah. We walked out into the parking lot and just talked. We talked from 9:30 until midnight. He asked me what I wanted for winning, but I just couldn't say I wanted the kiss because there was this group of people standing a little bit away from us, also talking. (Apparently the parking lot of a bowling alley on a Tuesday night is a popular place to hang).

He told me he had something to tell me, but he didn't want to say it in front of the other people, so we walked a bit away from them out of hearing range. He told me that he really liked me... I returned saying I liked him too. So we just kind of continue our conversation and I know we are both just dieing for the other people to leave us alone, but it just got so late that we called it a night. I wanted to tell him that I wanted a kiss, but I just don't think it would have felt right in front of the other group of adults. He want's to do something Thursday... kind of soon given our distance (he lives in RI), but I said ok. He might come to visit me at my apartment, but I'm not sure if it will be a good idea given what's been happening with Josh and me.

Picking up the pieces

First of all, I'd like to thank those of you who have reached out to me within the past week. I really needed someone to talk to and I'm glad you were there. It sounds silly but I really wanted to die. I'm feeling much better now, even though we are still splitting and I've lost the Josh I used to know.

Right now, I am looking at 2 potential places to live, with the third option of staying at the apartment and putting an ad up for a roommate. One of those options is about half of what I'm paying for the current apartment + utilities, so I'm really hoping that will work out. I'd be saving money equivalent to a car payment, so it's like I get a free car out of this whole ordeal. I get to look at the place in person on Tuesday.

I met with Anthony again, one week after our dinner date. This time we saw Jennifer's Body, a horror/comedy about a teenage girl (Megan Fox) who turns into a demon and terrorizes her school. It was kind of corny, which was I think intentional by the director, but overall it was enjoyable to watch. Anthony wants to meet again Tuesday already to go bowling. :)

I'm really thinking of starting a new blog without any traces back to this one when I get a new place. It'll be like starting a new chapter in my life. I haven't decided how I will do it if I'm not going to have a bridge from this blog to the other, but I'll figure something out.